I choose this: to spend this morning reading, thinking, and writing to sort through what I’m learning about God. I feel refreshed, renewed, my perspective bigger, more long term – eternal. Why?
because I choose this
I choose this over a shower today. Over the dishes in my sink. Over feeling 100% prepared when I wake my children and get them out the door to school.
I choose this
Instead of the laundry in the basket, exercising, or eating in peace and quiet.
I choose this. I need this. I’ve missed this.
Every other action I’ve taken has also been a choice.
Dropping dead tired to couch and scanning Facebook – choice
Reacting in anger instead of acting in love – choice
Dropping Oreos in the grocery cart on the way to the milk – choice
Rarely did each of those choices receive much thought. Rarely did I know what I was giving up to get them.
This morning is different. This morning the crush of daily life is pressing hard. Where do I start? What do I do? The need, the pull, the must is to rush around working as hard as I can to fit it all in before the children wake up. But my soul is dry, withered, spent. So I choose.
I choose the chaos that will come because I’m reading instead of packing lunches this morning. I choose an afternoon of accomplishing life’s insurmountable tasks of living while speaking lovingly with little ones who undo it at every turn.
WHY?
For eternity! For God! For soul life. I need Jesus. I will weather the chaos in relationship to Him better than I will live in relative tranquility without Him. That is the truth that is hard for me to believe. That is the truth God has graciously shown me today. I pray He continues to keep my eyes open to reality. Because I will worship something. Will it be Him? For His yoke is easy and His burden is light. Or, will it be my version of tranquility, my version of neat and clean and tidy? That task master provides no life, except to wake up tomorrow to do it all over again because death and destruction happen to dishes and laundry just as much as my soul and this body.
A perfectly manicured home and time spent with Jesus are not always mutually exclusive. Except, when they are, what do I choose?
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